I'm having the worst anxiety/panic attack of the last few years. It won't stop for more than a few hours and even then it's there, brewing on the backburner in my mind. It won't go away, it won't let me eat, sleep or just think straight. It feels like an awful nightmare from which there's no escape no matter what. Actually, it was triggered by a movie which reminded me of the worst time of my life almost 7 years ago. I'm terrified of feeling that,terrified ever again then I realize it's exactly what's happening right now and then it sends me even deeper into my misery. I've even thought about PTSD. Nobody in my family understands and I went to a psychologist last summer but nothing helps. I don't want to go on meds because I'm scared of the prospect of addiction. I feel so incredibly lost and helpless. It's 4 am right now and I'm dreading the thought of putting my phone down and going back to sleep even though I'm dog tired and I need to have a good sleep. I haven't had one in three days. I just wish this hell stopped for good and I could be happy again.