I canīt fucking take it anymore. Fuck, I hate how Iīm alone with this but Iīm so scared of admitting it to anyone else. I want to post it everywhere, shout it out put it on every profile and dare people to say something about it, but at the same time I want to hide and never confess it to anyone. I donīt want to be rejected sure, but the main reason is I donīt want people to treat it as if itīs nothing. Itīs a "problem" thatīs been haunting me ever since I could think and its always confused and scared me in a way. I cut becuz of it, I stay up late and rob myself of sleep becuz of it, I try to find satisfaction but it never comes. I can only hope that one day, Iīll find someone I can spill it too. I want it to come true now or someday but at least somewhere in my life. I want help and at the same time want someone to support my "problem"