I'm not happy with the way things are going at my church. The last worship pastor was fun to work with, but no one would play on his/her team. Now that he's/she's gone, new people are in charge and everything feels different. It's like they expect to have an instant relationship with me, but I can't trust them that easily. I've also noticed that others who weren't leading much are leading all the time, but any involvement I want is just an afterthought. I don't even know that I want to be a part of the church anymore - faith isn't what it used to be, and why should it... it was in man and friendships, not God.
My mind understands all of this, but these emotions are clouding my thoughts and it's so difficult to accept it and move on. Thanks AV - great to know I can post and rant and whatever... thank you.